Gotta Start Somewhere

I can't for a second believe that it is the end of July. This summer has flown right by and its amazing that in less than a month, I'll be sitting in class again, starting out my 2nd half of my college years. I started helping out with GT's youth group, Real Life, last week (I use the term "helping" loosely because in reality, I'm not doing much) and I've got mixed feelings about it. See, I entered Gordon as a YM major and then switched to Bio. But I did take Foundations of Youth Ministry and Mark Cannister is haunting me right now as I realize that in four short weeks I'll be back at school and won't be here. That class stressed the importance of investing in ministry and how it works best when you pour time into it. And of course, its not like I'm an integral part of RL right now, and its huge, so there are so many other adults there, but I still feel torn over whether getting involved was the best decision. I'm certainly enjoying it, but I do want to build relationships with these kids, and I can't do that in four weeks. But, like the title of this post says, you gotta start somewhere, right?

Which brings me to another topic....we're talking about being a disciple at RL, and we're working our way through the gospels, which is just awesome because every time I open one of them up, I learn something new. I so wish I could have known Jesus as a person. I think of how many times I read a book and get so wrapped up in it that the characters are real, and here is this awesome story and yet, I often feel like I'm still reading fiction. I lose sight of the fact that these things REALLY happened! He raised people from the dead and cast out demons into pigs and healed the blind and the sick. Its so easy to get caught up in the story and forget that its history. I almost wish that Jesus had written a little autobiography, or commentary, so that I could know what he was thinking when he was walking on water or rebuking the Pharisees. But I guess thats just another mystery of God that I don't need to know right now.